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Questions to Ask Concerning the Mormon Religion May His Story Never Be Forgotten Apostasy Rages in Current LDS Church Update: Apostasy in the Modern Mormon Church One Must Stand Alone if Necessary A Response to Mormon History Revisionists Doctine and Covenants, Section 10 Patriotic Poetry: The Cry From the Dust Poetry Collection Parley P. Pratt's Address to the American Indians The Return of the Prophet Joseph Smith A Testimony of the Divine Origin of the Prophet Joseph Smith Pentagram and the Modern LDS Church Preaching the Gospel in Many Lands The Prophet Mormon's Warnings to Those Who Spurn the Words and Works of the Lord D&C - 113th section, Scattered Remnants Exhorted to Return The Importance of Finding the Truth Translated Beings Laboring Among the Indians Blessings on the Righteous in America Prophetic Sayings of Heber C. Kimball Why the Current LDS People Have Lost Their Capacity to Reason New Books: The Mormon Religion is Still True What Did Early Church Leaders Have to Say on the American Indians? What is the True message of the Book of Mormon?
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Experiences, Section 13 One afternoon, in about the middle of Summer of 1960, I felt something like a snake enter my right side and crawl to the center of my stomach. The thought came to me to throw it off or die. I was directed to be calm and exercise my will power in very patient thought and think of the Savior's face as I had seen it. There was a circumstance at that period of being surrounded by some people who were hostile, and it took very much willpower and patience to concentrate on the Savior's face, and shut out the everyday images of some people I was surrounded by. It is quite difficult to get an annoying, hostile image from one's thoughts, when one tries. Yet I was directed that my life, and my mission depended on such. Gradually, I felt the thing that had entered me, go out in pieces through my left side; as I succeeded in exercising my will power as I thought of the Savior's face, and shut out the hostile, nervy images. This was the start of a period of months of such strenuous will power, and exercising my thoughts as I was directed day and night. I never had a good nights sleep, as I would feel the necessity of keeping awake to exercise my thoughts as I felt directed. I felt all Israel depended on my success, that any failure of mine would result in failure for Israel, and also the world. My thoughts were that every person is part of a scientific process of creation, good or evil, but that I was one with a mission such as Joseph Smith had. I knew how Joseph Smith felt when he said to the twelve, "This is the day I have longed for to place an equal responsibility on you that no matter what happens to me, the work will go on." How I longed to feel I could put the responsibility I felt I had to carry on others to share so that if I failed, others would carry on, but my thoughts were only that I could do what I was doing, which was a severe strain day and night, and hard to bear. There were different patterns, such as one period of little things feeling like bullets entering my right side; and on my exercising patient, determined thoughts to make it leave the left side of my body. There was one time after several hours, I decided I couldn't stand the strain any longer, and I relaxed. Immediately the things re-entered the left side of my body, along with a terrible, gloomy, evil feeling associated with such (which I had been throwing off). The thought came; if you don't want your family, yourself and all Israel to suffer all you have thrown off these past months, then keep trying. So I stood up and gave it all I had in the thought battle. Immediately, more little things like bullets entered my right side. Up to that time it had felt like slow revolver bullets, now fast like machine gun bullets. They came into my body and met the ones coming back from the left side, and forced them back out the left side. After another few minutes, I had won another victory and could relax for a time. |